I don't know what is going on recently.... I have been really confused recently..... Just now, Clairence told me that Vik wanna get back with her again.... and she told me that she still has feelings for him.... At the same time, she told me that she didn't accept him....

Well, I don't know if it's normal for you guys or not but, I did ask her, if she still loves me.... and well, she asked me not to ask that question and she kinda got mad at me because I sorta doubted her love.... Hmm.... I mean I guess it's normal...

And not long after that, after she woke up, she had this MSN title,"Where are you? Why are you not replying me?" My reaction was, who did she meant because I didn't get anything from her... So I asked her and she said I just wanna put it, why do you have to ask me so many things? Well, isn't it normal for me to ask after so many things happened? And again she said I doubted her love and this time, she proposed breakup.... Shocking wasn't it? Like in my previous post, I already mentioned that I know that something is bound to happen just that I don't know what.....

Well I guess I didn't see it coming..... I begged her and talked her through it.... And she finally gave me a chance.... But she deleted our relationship status, she is about to delete her blog which has alot of our memories and guess what? She wanna open a new facebook account....Wouldn't a normal guy feel suspicious?

I am tired of all the lies and after so many times she had hurt me....

I tried my very best to trust her.... I don't care even if she had hurt me.... I don't know if I should make use of the last chance she had given me.... I know that I still love her and I don't wanna lose her... But what is the difference between what I have now and breaking up? She doesn't wanna answer my questions.... She doesn't wanna talk to me.... All she is doing is treating me as a dirtbag..... I don't know if I can trust her anymore....

God... why do you have to give me feelings? Why do you wanna let me be the one who suffer all these things? I don't wanna love anymore..... I don't wanna get into a relationship anymore....... I should have listened......

I guess this will be my last and my final time writing on this very blog.... and I can't believe that the final post will turn out to be like this.... I will be freezing this blog from now onwards... I guess I do need a new fresh start and leave everything behind...... Well, this is it... I thank you for those who always read my blog and follows it.... I love you all....